Miss my DBF

Had a birthday party for my DD today. All the family was there and I had it in WPB, so it was easy for DBF to come and bring his kids, which he did. And it was great. And I realized when he was leaving that it might be another week before I would see him again...

and realized that I missed spending time with him.  Really. 

Our relationship started out quick and we became a couple relatively quickly last year. But he didn't want to feel like he was in a marriage where he had to check with me for every little thing and I was ok with that.  I wanted to be with him, and if that meant taking it a little slower, then I was ok with that too.  

But, I am starting to think that I am not ok with it. It took me awhile to get to the point where I thought I was ok. And today made me realize, I want more. I don't want to be married or anything, because I really don't think I am ready for all that that would entail, but I do want more than what we have now.  And I have been dealing with so many other things in my life, that I am realizing it now. 

And I don't know what to do about it.  When is life going to get easier. 

It also makes me wonder, when do I get taken care of?