Meloncholy

You know the feeling, when your heart sinks into your stomach, and a huge lump forms in your throat and you can barely swallow.  That is the status of my psyche today.  Even though I know "it" was over before I went to Boston, it still makes me sad to have to face the reality of it. I have so many different things to feel emotional about right now. "It" is just one of those things.

I know I will miss Amanda, but at the same time I am excited to get back to the routine of my life. But I don't know what that routine is now. Before I had Steve to spend time with, and now I really don't.  And while I know it is the right thing to do, it makes me sad.

So I guess I should. Move on that is. An unchartered course is always scary, the unknown usually is. BUT, and I shall repeat this to myself often, you do not not what the future holds, nor do I know what path I shall take, but onward and forward I go.